What’s my next Move?

Do you find yourself sitting there some days and you just really
have no freaken clue what your next move will be?

Lets keep shit real ok.

OF COURSE YOU DO.

Well Do you know the power in that question, when you are willing to stay open and listen for the answer?
TODAY when I woke feeling tired,
I laid in bed just “thinking” for almost an hour.
and you know how powerful thoughts are!
thoughts become things!!

I mean I have so many dreams,
I have sooo many new ideas,
I have sooo many new connections
I have sooo many opportunities landing in front of me
and I found myself going around and around in circles.

I kept asking myself
Do I focus on project A first.
Do I create that thing for Project B first/
Do I do that thing for Jorydyn first?
Do I ?
Do I?
Do I??

I was falling into confusion.
I was starting to breathe heavier.
I was falling into overwhelm.
I was metaphysically spinning at a speed of x 1000. before
I was brought back to my physical self.

So I gathered my thoughts, and headed here to this location.
This is a sacred place for me and boo. Because this park is
where we first decided to move back to NZ almost exactly 3 years ago
when i was suffering what ws labelled depression.
and as you may well know it was a pinnacle in our lives beaseu what has being created since
that day is simply extraordinary.
so we visit it at least once a week.

While sitting here on this blessed, sunny sunday afternoon journalling.
(After a dope picnic with my son).
I noticed, that when I’m alone with my thoughts.

Connecting to my higher self, and asking the courageous questions
that I KNOW will determine my next move.
There is something truly magnificent about mother nature,
and the energy & flow I reflect when I am immersed in her.

It’s truly where I see the order in all the chaos.

you see heres the thing. I went to sleep so fired up with excitement
after the profound conversations that I had with friends.

But then I woke feeling MEH
and When you first wake up,
and your coming back into a conscious state.
you start hearing your “thoughts”.

Well what I find personally,
is those very very very first thoughts that land, when your almost fully conscious.
are often the WOUNDED SELF taking front seat.

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN RIGHT.

The wounded little girl or boy who isn’t quite sure what to do,
The wounded little girl or boy who is questioning everything.
The wounded little girl or boy who feels lonely.
The wounded little girl or boy who doesn’t know if she/he can do it.
The wounded little girl or boy, who has felt deep pain and suffering.
and its where I notice, IF I DON’T catch myself quickly,
I shift into a state of FEAR pretty dam quick.
because its a natural process for fear to set in
when you are stepping outside our confortzone.
because fear is designed to try and keep you “safe”.

Because heres the thing.
my vision SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME
But i don’t want safe.
I plan to break the rules.
I plan to disrupt doubt so hard that people start dreaming again
I plan to influence the world through raising consciousness to the power we all have.
I plan to drive a movement of Queens who empower one another
and Kings who support their Queens.
and it takes
MASSIVE
COURAGE
CONSISTENT ACTION
COMMITTMENT
and
UNBREAKABLE BELIEF
to succeed when going against the status quo.

SO MY message for you all is this.

ONE DAY YOU WILL WAKE UP AND REALISE HOW PERFECT YOU ARE
YOU WILL SPOIL YOURSELF WITH LOVE
YOU WILL REMEMBER HOW TO STAY IN A STATE OF GRATITUDE AND FULFILMENT
YOU WILL BECOME YOUR MOST TRUEST AND AUTHENTIC VERSON OF YOURSELF
and when you do… if you choose
YOU WILL HAVE MOMENTS OF FEAR.
BUT RIDE THE WAVE BABY

CREATE THE SPACE TO BE STILL.
ASK THE RIGHT QUESTIONS.
LISTEN TO THE ANSWERS.
AND TRUST YOURSELF.

LOVE AND ABOVE ALWAYS
MARISSA XX